Returning to this blog sometimes is like visting my sins that I must admit I enjoyed committing and in the process assimilated all sorts of experiences ,good or bad, that I encountered in the process.However this even remotely doesn't mean that I am very proud of all that I've been over the past one year.Nothing that I say can offer any justification and no excuse is going to be good enough.But this blog offers me a certain degree of anonymity that I so much enjoy and I can talk freely about things I couldn't ,for the fear of disapproval or a debate over a mess table .This post should keep the ball rolling.

Our greatest fears and our greatest hopes are seldom realized.But when they are ,they leave us as a better person because we learn and appreciate the virtues of reconciliation.

Thelostsoulinafishbowl is at peace with himself though now and then he gets into the perpetually lost mode .Earlier this year,some company found him good enough to work for them.If things go well he'll start earning in another few months and will make enough for his bread and butter and that occasional tandoori chicken and beer.BTP is going on well though there are occasional hiccups.His inclination towards alcohol and grass has fairly reduced though he doesn't mind drinking and getting other people drunk once in a while for celebrating a few good things in life.Grass always appears greener on the "other" side but things are pretty much under control.

Suffering is a great teacher and it has taught him a few things well.It has taught him to count his blessings and be thankful to God for whatever little he has . It has taught him that a few things are better left than pursued.It has taught him that happiness is just not about great things happening in life.Its about getting a good night's sleep,its about knowing that there are people who enjoy your company,its about knowing that there is enough love in this world and hoping that there might me a little there for him too.